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Monday, 15 January 2018

Blue Monday

Apparently today is the most depressing day of the year. You won't get any arguments from me about this! It's miserable, everyone is overweight and skint (by everyone I mean me) and it's becoming more difficult to imagine what the sun even looks like or what it feels like to be truly warm. Illness is all around with a national flu pandemic and I know from first hand experience this Christmas the NHS is in complete crisis, despite our PM's protestations to the contrary. There is a total knuckle head in the White House tweeting outrageously every day as if to serve only to depress us all further, the daily news seems to carry only stories of evil and the future of the world seems as bleak as the weather. "Blue Monday" indeed.
At times like this, our situation with Elin can weigh more heavily than I would ever normally let it on my psyche. I'm angry. I'm like a little ball of anger. It's hardly surprising that when everything feels so insurmountable, the things I have trained myself not to dwell on re-surface like an indestructible villain coming back time and again at the climax of a horror movie. Don't get me wrong, Elin's been great (the one saving grace of a pretty stressful Christmas holiday this year) and for that I am forever grateful. But her dystonia hasn't been as good. Coupled with the terrible weather it's rendered us quite housebound, since taking her out whilst her muscles contort and spasm violently in her chair isn't really fun for anyone. At first you deal with it, as you always do. However week after week of it can start to grind you down. Family outings, or actually even just getting Elin to her necessary therapies and appointments, can be totally draining emotionally and physically. Elin is so big now (and heavy!!) and she turns 10 this year. When her dystonia is at it's worst, nothing seems easy. Because it isn't. Negotiating each day starts to feel like a big deal.
Last night Elin was up from 2am. Mental exhaustion is really starting to kick in when added to anxiety -two of my favourite bed fellows! So, what, I hear you cry, is the answer? I didn't come here just to moan (I don't think). I came here to write a list of things that help when this is what life is throwing your way.
1. Friends and understanding. Cliche's end up being cliche's because they are usually true.  Nothing will highlight your true friends like a little bad spell. I, of course, have learned this time and again over the years. Interestingly I have never once been surprised either by those that are always there for us. You just know who has your back and you know those who just don't really get it, or don't allow themselves to try. I am incredibly lucky to have accumulated some amazing groups of friends over the years. I simply don't know where I'd be without them (and without Whattssap group chat- thank you, internet!)
2. Books.  Books save my sanity time and again. I am deeply sorry for anyone who will never know the joy of getting totally lost in a good book. Total bliss.
3. Netflix or Iplayer or whatever you can get a good watch on. Pure escapism. "The Handmaids Tale", "Stranger Things" and "Big Little Lies" are my top 2017 water-cooler picks for box set brilliance. Over Christmas I managed to switch my brain off long enough to get immersed in "Little Women" (some lovely moments) and "Feud:Bette and Joan" (for a vintage hollywood history screen legend luvvie geek-girl like myself this was PURE JOY). Nothing beats curling up in front of the fire and getting lost in a creatively magical world of strong characters and good stories.
4. Conversation. The vicious circle of  depression dictates that the less you do the less you want to do and the less people you see the less you want to see. But there is no substitute for getting out and having a chat to lift the spirits. This is where Storyhouse, Chester, comes into it's own for me.Storyhouse is the new theatre in Chester (though it's so much more than that). I volunteer there and getting out to work some shifts around their Christmas show "The Secret Seven" and a couple of other touring show's they have hosted has probably single handedly boosted my mood more than anything else. Suffice to say taking the plunge and getting to know and work with complete strangers (often a completely different group of people each shift) has been more of a tonic than I could have imagined when I joined the team. Being an unashamed thespian I loved Storyhouse anyway, but now even more so. I was a bit scared to make the leap of joint their volunteers but I'm so glad I did. This will definitely be elaborated on in a blog post of the future, but if you've never heard of them check out their website https://www.storyhouse.com.  I'd been feeling a little lost recently since I gave up my permanent teaching job and exchanged it for the full time job of being Elin's Mummy (this is also another blog post in itself for the future !) I like getting out, meeting people using my brain a bit in whatever capacity I can. This has served to scratch that itch for me for the time being and I love that I've had that opportunity. Thank you Storyhouse.
5. Walking. Now Elin is back at school, the pressure of being confined to the house has lifted in that appointments and therapies and some other commitments  aside, we are able to get out sometimes for a massive walk. It really does clear the head. It definitely makes me less angry, too :-)
6. Elin's smile. Enough said.
7 . Counting your Chickens. We have so much to be thankful for, we know that, and Elin's good health has been a source of huge gratitude and pleasure these past few weeks in what is historically a difficult time of year for her.  Nothing like slapping yourself with a wet fish and telling yourself to get a grip, the British way.
I'm sorry of this has been a bit of a depressing post. I know it's not like me and it kind of goes against the theme of this blog but we all feel like this sometimes, right? I do wonder if sometimes remaining so positive has sort of created a not wholly accurate portrayal that this life has somehow magically become easy or at least that we don't still struggle daily with what happened to Elin, that we no longer worry, or cry, or feel helpless, or are knackered or in shock. We do and we are, it's just rarely a compelling enough feeling to discuss with anyone but each other. That too, though, is something to be thankful for because it means each other is more than enough for most of the time :-)
I think that's enough morbid introspection, because one thing the past ten years has most definitely taught me is that this too, as everything, will pass.
Oh, I forgot one more thing that helps me cope with these blue January days...
8. Blogging.
Thanks for reading, as always,
Ruth x
Storyhouse, Chester.


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Friday, 29 December 2017

Elin's Christmas Diary


Christmas Eve and Elin's Daddy just had to get her a decoration for the tree. I think he excelled himself this year! It's funny how even when Chistmas gets a little topsy-turvy some traditions just have to be carried out no matter what. Elin and I also felt strongly that we had to wear brand new Pyjamas on Christmas Eve too and for the second year running they were special Alder Hey charity ones. Last year's stripes made way for this year's spots. If you've not seen the 'Get Spotted For Alder Hey' campaign it's worth looking up and this year that's where our Christmas card money went.  A very worthy cause and a big thank you to Elin's Aunty Karen who works at Alder Hey and buys us our Christmas Eve set each year :-)
Christmas Day was slightly topsy-turvy this year because Elin's Great-Nanny was in hospital so when we would normally all be having lunch, we were visiting her on a ward instead and then having Elin's Great-Grandad over for Turkey sarnies. Elin took it all in her stride and was as good as gold with all the changes to routine .This meant eating Christmas dinner at night which actually turned out to be a nice change. As usual Elin was totally spoiled and actually had even more time than normal to open her presents since we weren't eating at lunch time. She had a 'Big Mack' Communication Aid Switch, Fish Tank, Portable DVD player and some Wireless Headphones for listening to her music with no outside sound from Santa. The rest of her ridiculous hall from our wonderful, overly generous family and friends included Moana goodies, P.J's, a giant Santa balloon, new clothes, C.D's, books, a new rucksack, special lights, a unicorn cape, a foot spa,  and a million other things. She was such a lucky girl. Of course she loved the tearing sound of the wrapping paper best :-)

The build up to Christmas was also a little topsy-turvy this year. If you read the blog regularly you will know that a little classmate of Elin's passed away the week before Christmas. This made for a very strange few days as we contemplated what her family were going through. These things are wrong at any time of year but at Christmas it seemed doubly cruel and incomprehensible. Due to the sad turn of events Elin's traditional school Christingle was unable to go ahead, but we did get to one in our village church on Christmas Eve which we attend each year. Despite not being in any way religious we do try and take Elin to this service, she simply adores the lights and carols, and so we thought of her beautiful little Christmas Angel classmate when the lights went out and of Ellie who we lost in September, and of Tobias who we lost earlier in the year and their families spending their first Christmas without their children. Unthinkable. We held Elin extra tight and felt lucky as we always do that we still have that option.
One positive in that strange, incongruous build up to Christmas was our becoming-traditional visit to the Chester Zoo Lanterns. This is a beautiful display of lights and lanterns in many different forms but mainly animals of course! This year Elin was dystonic so sitting in her chair was not as enjoyable for her but she still really enjoyed it and so did we. I would say that it wasn't quite as good as last year, there was a different company in charge and there weren't as many interactive displays or puppets/moving animatronics (which were both mine and Elin's favourite parts last year!) but still for the money it remained a lovely Christmas treat.

So after the excitement of Christmas day was over we went to London to visit the Drake family for Drake-mass mark two!! Unfortunately Elin remains dystonic and although she was incredibly happy and calm whilst we were down there the journey to and from London was not an easy one at all and one which Christmas traffic definitely didn't help. It has really started to become apparent to me that being anywhere but our own home for any length of time with Elin has started to become a real big deal. In travelling terms because of the dystonia even just getting her in and out of the car at the service station was hard going . Then, not having hoists and level changing platforms or step-free access/wet room etc is much harder than it used to be. I ambitiously had her on the floor a few times and getting up from that position with her has definitely taken it's toll even after a couple of days. Since our family is so huge this makes me worry about what this means for future get-togethers as she gets longer and heavier at a rate of knots, or so it seems lately. I don't like change at all but I think 2018 might signal a pretty seismic shift in our world. Elin will be turning 10 and I don't think we can tote her around as though she is still a toddler anymore :-( Sadly, I didn't get many photo's from our trip- a sure sign that I was mostly pinned underneath Elin for the duration but suffice to say she had a lovely time. She was spoiled rotten AGAIN and as usual absolutely revelled in being around the children. She only has to hear their voices and she's laughing, it's the cutest thing. 
Well. we're home again now and that brings us up to date with Elin's Christmas adventures so far. I'm not sure what else we have planned but as she doesn't return to school until the 9th of January this year I'm sure there will be plenty of holiday fun yet to come- I'll be sure to keep you informed. 
Thanks for reading about our girl, hope you all had a wonderful, happy and healthy holiday
Ruth xx

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Wednesday, 20 December 2017

Christmas Angel


Today I spoke to a Mum who has lost her child. Another grieving Mum in our world, another of Elin’s friends at school has devastatingly grown her angel wings. She will be buried three days before Christmas Day and I don’t understand this world anymore.
This Mum took me today and showed me a photograph of our daughters playing together in her beautiful school tribute display. No bitterness, only bravery. Strength beyond explanation, determined to do her girl proud and encouraging others to think of the good things. I cannot stop thinking of her grit and her mettle, a soldier of emotion and a solid pillar in a crumbling temple of life as she knows it. Once again I am left reeling by a courage and dignity I can’t comprehend, I hear myself uttering the cliche yet again ‘I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t be that strong’ but I know I could. Because these Mums have not only had to be strong from often the moment they gave birth, but they have watched their babies be stronger every day of their lives than any one person has to be in a lifetime. Watched them fight and watched them win, watched them rally and seen them beaten. So I finally understand after all this time, as I look at the pictures of this twinkling girl always shining in life and now forever a Christmas Angel, that the strength of these incredible Mums doesn’t come from them- it comes from their children. 
Sharon
Claire
Anna
Diane
Helen
Annie 
and 
Amy.
You are heroes. 
You are doing your amazing children so proud each and every day, this is your gift to their memories. You are my daily inspiration. 
Ruth 
xxxx
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Saturday, 16 December 2017

Elin's Diary #4

Well we started the week still in Narnia with an unheard of snow-day off school and I think it's fair to say by Monday tea-time we were all a little fed up of the snow, as beautiful as it was! It's obviously so very difficult to get Elin out in it, whereas I could have walked in it forever there's only a limited amount of time she will tolerate the sledge and her chair certainly wasn't getting out in it! It's such a shame really as I think she would have enjoyed the sensory overload of being out in it and sensing the difference. I read an article by a visually impaired person that said even though they had hardly any sight at all and  obviously couldn't see the snow, the sound and atmosphere is completely different when it snows because everything is muffled and the surfaces don't reflect sound the same. It was fascinating and I wonder if this is a little what snow is like for Elin. I really would have liked to get her out more to find out how she really felt about it, but I guess without snow tyres this is a bit of an impossibility!
                   
I did manage to get out for a bit of a solo stomp up by our house and it was just stunning. I felt like the White Witch was going to fly past on her sled looking for Aslan!
Elin was really happy to return to school on Tuesday and had a good start to the week with lots of Christmas craft and some good sitting. Sadly, as the week progressed the sitting decreased as the dystonia increased. What better day for Elin to decide she wasn't going to sit in her chair AT ALL than school Christmas play day?! Thursday saw a complete lack of ability to sir for any length of time at all and sadly it coincided with her turn as a beautiful Angel in her concert :-( This meant that for Elin, the Christmas play was a bit of a wash-out this year as it was impossible to leave her in her wheelchair and thus pretty impossible get her safely onto the stage. Once again we find ourselves massively frustrated by this dystonic condition which when it rears its head badly can interfere with her experiences so profoundly. I know on a different day she would have absolutely loved it and this is why I hate it so much- ultimately it takes away her fun. It just isn't fair.
Fortunately, one of the Drake sisters did manage to get onto a stage this week! Caitlin did her annual turn in Birmingham Town Hall for their Christmas concert. Family who attended the concert managed to get this video, for those of you hard-core blog fans who I know like to follow Caitlin's adventures too, this is her singing "I Dreamed A Dream" from Les Miserables. Sorry for the distant view.
Elin has watched this gorgeous footage (we are so proud) about five times already today and without a shadow of a doubt absolutely recognises her sisters voice and just grins all the way through. It's amazing to see! On that subject, Caitlin came home from Drama school in London for Christmas this week and managed to be here for when Elin's bus got home on Tuesday. Once again the instant recognition in Elin's face was amazing and I am kicking myself for not filming her reaction. I did manage to get a couple of photo's though which I think give you an idea of how pleased she was to see her!
                    
Just amazing. Definitely made me a bit teary!
Elin's dystonia has been a little better but she's definitely having a bad spell this week, logic dictates that it will pass but it means everything is a little more difficult and it means having to watch her be uncomfortable. Not much fun. We cancelled a visit to the Cinema in Chester today to see a special showing of 'The Wizard Of Oz' which we were really looking forward to and which on an ordinary day she would have loved because we just don't think she'd have got much from it other than upsetting herself, particularly as it's a fair journey in the car to get there (for Elin anyway!) so the dystonia would almost certainly have stolen her joy. Again this was really disappointing but we just have to accept as always that when she is dystonic some things just can't be done.  It's not about being defeatist as sometimes we do just have to try and power through it but we have to ask ourselves in some situations what it would achieve and would Elin really enjoy it when she's feeling that way :-( As a good friend is stuck in hospital with her little one this week and I know some little friends of Elin's are too, we know things could be so much worse and we have to always keep at the forefront of our minds that she is well and happy and the dystonia must just be endured! Elin copes far better with it than me actually. She is such a brave little trouper.
Fortunately we did manage to visit one of her favourite places in the world this morning- the hairdressers in our village! It was time for Elin's Christmas haircut!! Once in the chair on my knee she was as good as gold and laughed continually as usual whilst they snipped her fringe. I think you can see by the photo how amusing she found it! I think for the rest of the day it will be snuggles, stories and maybe one or two Christmas films. We haven't even watched 'The Snowman' yet this year which is Elin's very favourite. We've got some catching up to do.
Well we're entering the last week of term now and I can hardly believe how fast it's gone as it doesn't seem two minutes since we were in Disneyland at the start of term in September. We've got another busy week planned culminating on Friday with the best part of Elin's school calendar, The Christingle performance and then a visit to the stunning Chester Zoo 'Lanterns' which we so enjoyed last year. 
"It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!!!"




Have a good week folks.
Ruth xxx


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Sunday, 10 December 2017

Elin's Diary #3

Newsflash! Christmas has come early at the cottage! For the first time in living memory Elin and I have managed to persuade Paul to allow the tree to go up before mid-December. Even Ebeneezer Drake himself was powerless to resist the charms of 'trimming up' to a Christmas song soundtrack as a snow blizzard raged outside. You'd have had to have been made of stone not to feel just a little Christmassy, so the tree is up, the lights are on, we've watched 'Elf' (note the matching T-Shirts- we're big 'Elf' fans here) and Elin is LOVING IT!! Oh- a point about our tree. It's not the most aesthetically pleasing I know. I would love to have a real one covered in only white berry lights and glass baubles. I realise ours looks like one of Santa's Reindeer's just vomited a load of Christmas decorations all over it.  But Paul has years worth of Christmas decorations that belonged to Elin's big brothers and sisters and they all have a story and HAVE to go on the tree. My own family adopted the tradition of buying Elin a new decoration each year and over the years I've had precious decs as gifts, too. So I have to concede it makes sense to have a tree of memories instead of a tree worthy of a Christmas advert, its not the most beautiful but you can definitely find something new each time you look at it! Anyway Elin approves :-)
Following the excitement of putting up the tree on Friday though, came a not-so-exciting Orthotics appointment. Luckily the Orthotist was visiting us at home and give him his due he battled through the snow storm to get here. I struggle with anything to do with Elin's feet. It just upsets me that they are so bent :-( Some of this stuff never gets any easier. It's a total catch 22 because the more you try to correct them, the more it hurts Elin and there is trauma to her skin on her feet and ankles. But if you don't try to correct them at all, then standing in her frame could start to become very uncomfortable for her and may even start to get impossible, as she continues to weight bear on the outside of her feet instead of the soles of her feet. Standing is so good for her that we want to avoid stopping her standing in the future. At the moment her AFO's and specialist shoes aren't really doing their job when she is in her frame. Hence the specialist Orthotist visit. He was very reassuring. NOT!!!! "Her feet are absolutely terrible aren't they!! Why have they been allowed to get like this?" etc etc until I wanted to cry or fling a few baubles off the tree at him before asking him if he was aware it once took us over 12 months to get one pair of boots via the NHS and even then they still don't fit (I'm not knocking the NHS, it's just an overstretched service in an horrendous period in history for anyone with any kind of specialist needs I realise, but it makes sorting these issues out nigh on impossible whilst all the time they get worse) . Anyway the point is, Mr Straight-Talk has a plan for a special pair of boots she will wear whilst in her standing frame that should help a lot with this issue given the fact that we really don't want to consider surgery. So we will forgive him his bedside manner and hope he can deliver what he promised. 
Another, rather more successful appointment this week was Elin's assessment at 'The movement Centre' in Gobowen Hospital. Anybody wanting to take a look, the link is here https://www.the-movement-centre.co.uk. We're not sure how Elin got to nine years old without us hearing about this place but anyway a visit is better late than never I guess! The centre aims to develop movement for disabled children in different ways depending on need/ability (in Elin's case it will be by trying to improve head control and core strength) . She went on Thursday for an extremely long assessment and it's fair to say we were both soooo proud of her. She tolerated all the manipulation/moving/positioning brilliantly by people she had never met before. She really was a superstar, especially since the whole thing had to be done sans clothing too!! Brrrrr!!!!!
The director at the centre decided that it was worth trying a programme with Elin for the next 12 months. This physio programme will run alongside all Elin's other physio programmes and will not interfere with any other work being done. She was measured for a specialist standing frame which we will keep at home which will support her from the chest downwards and gradually remove a head rest  allowing her to practise side-to-side head movement and trying to encourage her to keep her head up. We are not expecting miracles and neither are the centre but we think that it's worth a try. They will set a programme we carry out at home and then re-visit them every so often to measure progress. Should be interesting! I think Elin is certainly in a more settled place now than she's ever been to tolerate extra physio work. We'll see. The movement centre was a lovely place and the staff were amazing with Elin. We felt immediately comfortable there and she even met Santa and had a toy! This is another place largely funded by charity and run with the help of many volunteers. Once again I was left feeling incredibly grateful at the generosity of strangers and incredibly lucky to live in a country where this kind of intervention and support is available to Elin and families like ours.

So finally Elin has rounded off another great week with lots of fun in the snow!! It really has been a lovely weekend. I can't remember the last time we had snow in December but I don't think there's anything nicer than snuggling by the coal fire as the snow falls down outside! We even managed to get a little ride in the sledge today- hurrah!! 
That was Paul's cardio workout done for a week!! 
 I think we need to look into getting a specialist sledge, apparently available for £358 https://www.amazon.co.uk/Cerebra-Sledge-Ideal-Disabled-Child/dp/B00B4WZ66Q Hmmmm!!! (Paul has already uttered the immortal words 'I think I could build one of those!!!!' Oh god)
This one did the job for today though. 
Have a wonderful, cosy, Christmassy, snuggly, happy week folks!! I'll report back next week on Elin's further adventures.
Thank you for taking an interest in our girl :-)
Ruth xxx




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Saturday, 2 December 2017

Elin’s Diary #2


Wow. Just look at this year’s School photograph! It arrived yesterday and looks even better than the proof they sent home for ordering, which is a good job since I ordered enough to keep the photography company in business for another twelve months! We both actually had a little cry when we opened the package that came home with her on Friday and saw what a truly beautiful photo it is. She looks so grown up and the way the light in her eyes is shining is just so perfect. I think it really captures Elin’s cheeky spirit. A massive shout-out has to go to the School staff here -the eagle eyed among you might notice that there is a person holding Elin draped in black cloth (genius solution to the dystonia/seating issue which can hamper school photo day and has done in the past). This person is Elin’s ever amazing key worker and I know her class teacher and possibly others would have been there too working hard to orchestrate a good shot. It can be so difficult and we so appreciate the outcome. It’s the best one we’ve had for years I think Elin looks like a movie star! So any family reading this you WILL be getting a copy of this and any non-family members who fancy a wallet sized snap or bookmark give me a shout.
It’s been another good week in the land of Elin. To my knowledge there has been no more sleeping/snoring during lesson time and Elin has started rehearsing her school Christmas play! Exciting! Perhaps the best news from school this week though came from the vision people who visited and gave Elin her annual eye test. Her vision has improved again since last time they tested her. This is fantastic news obviously and we are so proud of her. One of the most difficult things for me to grasp over all these years has been Elin’s reduced vision. I think it’s so cruel that the one thing that could greatly aid her understanding of the world around her also eludes her. Sight. But we have always known she does see, albeit in a very different way to us, so it’s been a constant attempt on our behalf and her school’s behalf to try and improve what she does have in order to keep maximising her quality of life and opportunities to communicate. It’s so wonderful and gratifying to discover that this hard work has not been in vain as she begins to track, briefly focus and follow images on a screen. Once again the kudos has to go to the experts she works with at school on a daily basis, who we use also as our guides in vision development. Once again Elin has proved the doctors wrong, since I distinctly remember being told when we were discharged from Alder Hey aged five that her vision development would probably plateau between the ages of 5-8. Go Elin!! 
This weekend will be a quiet one for Elin really as we have nothing big planned! She really enjoyed opening her advent calendar on Friday (I think it’s the sound of the foil) and even enjoyed a few licks/tastes of chocolate number one!
 
 
Safe to say I think she enjoyed it!
Finally we managed to get out for a nice walk today and Elin was largely good in her chair, hurrah! One of the things I absolutely love about where we live is the range of walks close by. Only last week we discovered a new one which looked like something out of a fairytale as you weaved through the trees on a blanket of autumn leaves without seeing a single soul. I can’t wait for it to snow because it will look exactly like Narnia there! Not all of these walls are suitable for Elin sadly, but lots of them are and we don’t even have to get in the car first. We are very lucky. I’ll leave you with two beautiful photos I got today of Elin as we were out trying to get our daily step count to 10,000 (well that’s just me in an attempt to combat the muffin top or should I say mince pie top?) Hope you have the best week, I can’t believe it’s December again already. Fun times ahead! 
Thanks for reading,
Ruth x
 
My girl:Rainbow chaser 😊🌈
Xx
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Sunday, 26 November 2017

Elin’s Diary

Welcome to ‘Elin’s Diary’ which I’m hoping to update every Sunday reflecting on the past week of adventures! (Perhaps with the odd post in between, too). It’s been overall a good week for our little sunshine girl. She has been slightly off colour - something I’m putting down to the flu vaccine last weekend but is more likely just a little cold or virus with all the excessive secretions that have been plaguing her.  She even had a rather long nap at lunchtime in school more than once this week! Oh dear Elin how sad! She’s not done that since she was a tiddler.  Apparently she was snoring all over the classroom I’ve no idea where she gets those bad sinuses from! (Me) Although we don’t think she demonstrated appropriate remorse! I think detention is the only way forward.

On Friday I missed an apppintment in the athsma clinic for the THIRD time. I can only conclude that my sub conscious being really, really doesn’t want to go or that any *rare appointment that I have for myself with a healthcare professional just never quite arrives on my radar, even though it’s repeatedly written on my calendar! I’ve never once forgotten an appointment of Elin’s so why I can’t muster up the enthusiasm about my own health to remember a five minute check up is beyond me- maybe I’m scared somewhere in my psyche that I’ll be told red wine causes wheezing!! But I do think that the seemingly endless amount of appointments for Elin in the last six months or so has created a bit of a brain malfunction on my part. Perhaps you can carry around too much information in your head and you sort of short-circuit. I feel a bit like I’ve short-circuited! Yesterday for the first time ever we ran out of one of Elin’s medications. I had forgotten to pick up the new bottle from the Chemist. I rooted through the cupboards in disbelief of my own idiocy even though I knew they weren’t there. As I turned the bottle upside down and shook out every last drop, like in that Tomato Ketchup advert from the 80’s, I felt totally gutted. Elin is so vulnerable and reliant on us being on top of everything. Feeling that you let her down even in a tiny way is horrible. Yes we all make mistakes but being wrong is not one of my strongest points! Luckily for us we managed to elicit every last drop out of the bottom of this medicine bottle- taking us up to first thing on Monday morning where the new bottle will hopefully be waiting patiently for me in the Chemist. This barrage of appointments for Elin we seem to have been experiencing is not necessarily a bad thing though, I’m not complaining, she has an amazing team of professionals around her ensuring that she gets the very best care from all angles and for that we are forever grateful (I just wish my brain cells would stop feeling so frazzled and start working at full power again-if they ever have been)
For example, on Friday Elin got to start ‘Hippotherapy’ again. Sadly this is nothing to do with actual Hippo’s (shame!) and instead is a horse riding therapy for the disabled. Elin’s muscles, joints, spine, head control and pelvis are all given a good workout whilst on the back of a mechanical horse with a physiotherapist. One day she may migrate to real horses, but obviously there is a risk there now she is so big and a lot of responsibility for the back-riding physio to keep her safe. So a mechanical horse it is for now, which mimics the movements of a real horse. Elin loved it! It’s so wonderful just to get her doing something new that she enjoys and if there are physical benefits then all the better. 
 
The Clwyd Special Riding Centre is an amazing place which would never run without donations and volunteers. It blows my mind that this sort of opportunity is open to Elin because people are willing to give up their free time to make it happen. The generosity of the human spirit never cease to amaze me. We are very much hoping this is something Elin can continue to enjoy for some time to come.
Elin’s also had a really lovely weekend because it was her Great Aunty Brenda’s 90th Birthday Party! Wow! That’s quite an age and Elin was absolutely delighted to be out at night! In fact she was so good and so pleased we began to wonder if she thought the party was for her! It was a special treat that big sister and all round favourite person Caitlin travelled back from London for the weekend to sing at the party. She brought the house down as usual but what was lovely for me was to see how excited Elin got when Caitlin started singing. She just adored it. Usually I would shy away from taking Elin out at night because I don’t like to upset her routine (or things just aren’t suitable for her) but I’m so glad we did!!! I realised that I get used to going out in the evening without Elin and you always feel like you are missing a limb. It's a feeling you make yourself get used to for practical reasons but it never really goes away. So it was so good to see the extended family together and have Elin there alongside us. I’ll leave you with some pictures of Elin trying to steal Aunty Brenda’s thunder and wish you a really good week. Thanks for taking an interest in our miracle girl 😊
Ruth x
 
   
 
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